Like I warned you, my space shuttles. Well, after
meandering over some nostalgia, some romanticism with some borrowed expressions
and some of my own, I am back to normal. Not that writing in Hindi is abnormal;
I hate people who ask me, “Oh, so you can write in Hindi?” I mean what’s the big
deal?
Anyway, without digressing further, I want to apologize
for my last post. I realized how bad it was. I was humming a tune in my head and
just fixed few words to it, so that I could sing aloud. Though, I have given
quite a believable reason for the inspiration of that song; I do have a picture
of Kajari in my head. But, I could have done a better job. And I promise I
will.
Maybe not now, maybe in a few days, may be in a few
years, but I will. I can’t disappoint Kajari. She means much more than just a
woman who inspires me. So what if she doesn’t exist in the real world? She does
in my thoughts. She is enigmatic, astute, firm, arresting, stubborn and dark.
Dark because she doesn’t let anyone get to her. Nobody has been close to her
ever.
She is whimsical, she can make you love and hate her in
the same breath. She is the one who can make a man walk out of his relationship
(Read marriage) to be with her. But no one can ever be with her, you know why?
Because she is erratic. So volatile! She is not the most beautiful woman I have
seen, but she is that dusky sunset that you wait to catch by the beach side; one
that makes you gloomy yet keeps you from eluding. She is like that quaff of
uncooked rice that you can’t resist. She is all unconventional. She is poetic in
her own way, and can surprise you with most profound one liner (original) when
you expect it the least; maybe when you are dying. She is a maverick.
But hang on, she is not a clichéd. What keeps her off
from being a clichéd is the fact that she is full of mistakes. She is not the
most ideal girl one could seek inspiration from. She has hurt people, she has
broken hearts, she has lied, she has ditched and she doesn’t like to be alone.
She likes to be alone when there are people around her and she wants to be with
them when alone. She is chemically imbalanced! A complete goner. She should take
charge of her life, but she lets it be.
Kajari is mad. Kajari is full of love. Kajri is the
biggest liar I have seen yet she is harmless. I don’t want sound like a clichéd,
but she is different!
